Yoga Thailand, Koh Samui May 27th, 2007

Koh Samui, Thailand Sunday, MAy 27th, 2007

Today has been a very strange day. I got up to practice after having a day off. I also had not really eaten much yesterday. I was tired very early in the practice. I was just dragging and my form was really bad. THEN something great happened. During the vinyasa series that one does throughout the practice I actually did the jump through. OK, more explanation is probably needed.

The vinyasa series it a series of 7 movements that you do between asanas (poses). One of the movements in that series is when you are in downward facing dog you exhale bend your knees you are supposed to swing your whole body and legs through your arms which are planted on the ground. It is very difficult and usually most people's feet and legs get stuck just as your feet are underneath your torso. Today, however, i actually did the jump through and my feet did not get stuck. I was able to actually get them through my arms to shoot out in front of me. This is a huge accomplishment. I thought I would never be able to do it. :)

So that actually re-energized me and I was able to finish the practice with confidence and zeal. It is so funny how your mind really plays tricks with you and if you let it it can bring you really far down. Anyway, I am happy and can't wait to practice again and try to get that to be a normal part of my practice.

Then we had breakfast and I relaxed a bit. I have just been really antsy today. I can't seem to keep still nor can I still my mind and get anything accomplished. Every time I sit down to read, I just can't. I am anxious about something. I just don't know what. I hope that doesn't mean something is brewing inside.

I went to the beach to swim and burn off some of this nervous energy but I still feel so antsy. Don't know.

Many of the people who were here last week left because the retreat was over. Now there are some new people here and the cycle starts over again. I am making an effort to really listen to people. Even though it is a challenge because I like to talk too. One of the main reasons I am trying to do this is because there is a girl here who talks incessantly. Never lets anyone get a word in edgewise. I find it really irritating. The reason, probably, because I have some very similar traits. I just hope that I am not that bad. Not that my or her stories are uninteresting it is just sometimes I want to hear what others have to say. It is a struggle but this is the perfect time to work on those things in myself because my life has been so totally altered.

I bid you all peace in all that you do and hope that you find joy in the little things we take for granted.