Today is the first day that I am really missing home. I know that I always miss Jeff, that is a given but today it really hit. I have been so busy this week that I feel that there has been no time to stop. This morning there is no practice and I am just sitting in my room pondering the next month. Jeff is not on line and has been out of range for a while. So it makes me miss him more when I don't hear from him daily. Jill, an amazing teacher, friend, that I made here from Philadelphia left last night, which makes me sad. My mum sent me a message that Makayla, my 8 year old sister, started to cry when she signed my birthday card and when my mum asked why she was crying, she said that she missed her big sister.
I guess I don't always realize what an impact people have on other's lives. This morning makes me reflect how important it is to value and cherish the people in our lives. Especially when I am so far away.
The transient nature of yoga land is difficult too. Everyone comes and goes on their own schedules. Not a terrible thing, really, but it gets difficult to meet such amazing people and then they leave, or I leave. Then the cycle starts all over again and you have to meet new people. The same questions and answers are exchanged; What is your name? Where are you from? What do you do? However, the answers are all so different and all so interesting. The people one meets in yoga land are amazing. I love being here and hope I will always get to participate even though it is so difficult to say goodbye so often.
Then I think about going home. Really to start this new life together with the man I love. Trying to create yoga land in New York. At least until Jeff and I decide where to settle down. I love New York, don't get me wrong but both of us want to move somewhere a bit less hectic. AND even though, the yoga in NY is fantastic. I am sure I can create a great place anywhere. This next 6 months is all about recreating my life, getting a job, building a life with Jeff. I am so excited, nervous, confused, happy to start this new adventure and time in my life.
The best thing about all of it is that I am strong. So much stronger then I was 2 years ago. The internal strength that I have gained from this amazing practice is simply incredible. I am so lucky to have fallen into this Ashtanga practice. I give thanks to the divinity in all of us, to Holly Mullaly(my very first yoga teacher), to Kumal (my first ashtanga teacher in Beijing), Paul and Jutima, Guy, and especially, Guruji, Sharath, and Saraswathi for bringing this amazing practice to me.
And finally to all of the amazing people I have met along this path. To those with whom I have lost contact but still think of and hope that we meet again. All of those amazing people that pop in and out of yoga land. I truly cherish their guidance, strength, friendship, support and time.
Have a great day everyone.
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